I've been battling the forces of evil...

and damn I'm tired. You ever have one of those nightmares that robs you of good sleep for at least 3 days? I have. The other night. I'm still freaked out about it. I was afraid to go to sleep last night because I thought I might have it again. That is not normal for me. I don't have nightmares. I usually have really pleasant happy dreams. Sex dreams mostly. (That's the part of my brain that doesn't like celibacy rebelling against me) We all know those dreams almost always turn out good.

I'm trying to figure out what triggered the dream in the first place. It could be as random as something I saw on TV or read in a book or it could be something deeper. Something my brain is trying to get me to work through or to let go. For example. For the first two years after I left my husband I kept having weird dreams that we had to get married again or that we kept having sex even though we hate each other. They physically made me ill and I was so pissed that they wouldn't stop. My friend told me they were because my brain was cleaning house so to speak. It was getting rid of all the bad memories and feelings I had associated with the marriage. It's true. I never have those dreams anymore. I let it go. Took a long time but it happened.

So what does the new dream mean? Let me explain it first. I basically dreamt that I was performing an exorcism on someone. We were in a group of people. The person was neither male nor female that I can remember. There profile was young but when they looked at me directly they were old. I kept calling for the demon to leave the persons body and when it did it tried to get into mine but I fought it and then I woke up. I was in a strange position that I never sleep in and I had kicked off all my covers and was covered in cold sweat. It scared the crap out of me. I rolled over and immediately texted one of my friends because I knew he was up at that time. I just needed to have a human connection just for a minute. So weird huh? What does it mean. What inner "demons" am I fighting?

I really need to think about this one.