Do I have hat hair?

I've been wearing the celibacy hat a bit to long. It is really starting to mess up my hair. This was never more evident than today when I grabbed one of my girlfriends and made her sit in my lap because I needed human contact. Sounds creepy I'm sure, but heck I don't care! It's the only kind of contact I can have right now. I have incredible will power but damn it's been a while...a long long while. Why can't I use that will power in other aspects of my life? Like when I'm standing in front of a box of doughnuts for example. Why can't I just walk away? I have a theory and it goes as follows. I am expending all my energy on remaining celibate therefore I have no energy left over to get my butt in shape. So I guess it is either give in and lose weight or deny myself and stay chunk. One defiantly out weighs the other now that I look at it in writing. So why stay celibate? Well, I am more focused on my family and personal goals. I feel more in tune with my spirituality and I'm not stressed about anyone cheating on me or catching something nasty from them. Now that I am really thinking about this perhaps in order to be focused on the weight issue I need to redirect my energy. It's all connected. I won't give up celibacy until I find love. I won't find love until I feel good about myself. I won't feel good about myself until I get in shape. I can't believe that I am just realizing this now. Wow this celibacy thing is working after all.